Thursday, August 30, 2007

Ever the busy one!

I have been SO busy getting Kennedy ready for her two schools. I am so excited that she will be learning from other people than myself and can't wait to see how she progresses over this next year. She is an amazing crystal child and being on this journey with her is so rewarding and fulfilling. She was so excited to go to school today. She said, "I LOVE to learn!" I told her, "so do I". There is something so powerful in knowledge.

I have such fond memories of being a little girl and getting my library card and LOVING to go to the library. That same curiosity is present in me today. I have at least 15 books by my bedside EVERYDAY and I love the pursuit of knowledge. There is something to wonderful about the quest for information and then "understanding" something. I also love some fiction....light cheery reading.

I will be without Kennedy for the first time in her life next week when she goes to both schools Tues-Fri :( I guess I can finally...
*get a consistent workout schedule
*finish my thesis
*invent raw chocolate creations

Speaking of raw chocolate....I floated on my cacao high for days on end. I ate pretty much only raw choc for breakfast/snacks/lunch/snacks/dinner/dessert! I am pretty healthy with my raw these days and like I said before, I choose not to fall into the "guilt" trap with food. I choose quality foods that nourish me. And YES I think twice after I have consumed 2 pounds of almonds or almond butter in one sitting, but then I pull back and recollect and start the next meal in the best way I can. I am proud of the progress that I have made.

Saturday, August 25, 2007

How Buddha is my Baby?

I was rather busy in the kitchen the other day and I told my daughter to go and play with some of her teddy bears. She eagerly began to do so. I could hear her uttering sometimes inaudible sentences and I smiled with delight that she was being so compliant. Well, I walked out of the kitchen and saw her standing in front of the bears saying "It's okay bear, we found your mommie". She had put the younger one in the "mother's" lap and had given them both oranges!!!!!!!!! How Buddha is she? She was so happy to have "fed the hungry" I was ready to cry.

I loved Gela's review of Anastasia. It was so precise and dead on, I need not do my own (for now anyway ;-) I normally read very quickly. I actually take in everything, but I am just a fast reader. I have always loved books and loved knowledge. However, I am reading the Ringing Cedar Series with extreme's almost like I'm studying them. I would normally progress through a series with no other "fiction" books in between, but there is a book being read by now across the country that I HAD to pick up. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time. Let's be honest, I am NOT one of those Oprah book club people. I don't read a book b/c the entire country is reading it, but I am going to read this book because it is supposed to show the inner workings of a boy with Autism's brain! As a mom of a child with Autism, I will support authors that write Autism fiction! Here is a brief review of what the book is about copied DIRECTLY from the Doubleday Books Publishing Website :

"Christopher John Francis Boone knows all the countries of the world and their capitals and every prime number up to 7,057. He relates well to animals but has no understanding of human emotions. He cannot stand to be touched. Although gifted with a superbly logical brain, Christopher is autistic. Everyday interactions and admonishments have little meaning for him. Routine, order and predictability shelter him from the messy, wider world. Then, at fifteen, Christopher’s carefully constructed world falls apart when he finds his neighbor’s dog, Wellington, impaled on a garden fork, and he is initially blamed for the killing. Christopher decides that he will track down the real killer and turns to his favorite fictional character, the impeccably logical Sherlock Holmes, for inspiration. But the investigation leads him down some unexpected paths and ultimately brings him face to face with the dissolution of his parents’ marriage. As he tries to deal with the crisis within his own family, we are drawn into the workings of Christopher’s mind.And herein lies the key to the brilliance of Mark Haddon’s choice of narrator: The most wrenching of emotional moments are chronicled by a boy who cannot fathom emotion. The effect is dazzling, making for a novel that is deeply funny, poignant, and fascinating in its portrayal of a person whose curse and blessing is a mind that perceives the world literally.The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time is one of the freshest debuts in years: a comedy, a heartbreaker, a mystery story, a novel of exceptional literary merit that is great fun to read"

On another note: Yesterday I ate a TON of food. There was a picnic for my grad school program (Community Psych and Social Change) and I made raw walnut/raisin/date/coconut balls (will post a pic tomorrow) and vegan oatmeal/apple muffins for the kids. I also ate an entire raw chocolate bar....a banana.....and then at 10:30pm a MASSIVE salad. I actually couldn't sleep b/c my stomach was hurting so badly. Note to self: do NOT eat that late at nite!!

Today is a new day full of promise and hope...dreams and intuition. I have raw chocolate/banana ice cream waiting for me...a juicy watermelon....local organic tomatoes, and yoga. My beautiful daughter is ready to take on the day so what more can I ask for?!?!

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Cacao Bliss Endures

Okay....bear with me.....let me take a moment to bow at the altar of the cacao gods.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Steps to Bliss....
1. Blend a cacao concotion
2. Stand in "awe" and excitement at what you are about to embark upon
3. Sip s-l-o-w-l-y
4. Take it all in....................

Today was another blissed out cacao wow! day. No formal exercise, but tons of running behind Tootsie Pop and playing "horsie". Had raw chocolate for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Also, snuck in a MASSIVE salad (lettuce/tomato/red onion/raw pickles/corn/lime/herbamare). I ate some of my onion bread from RAWvolution too. yummmmmmmyyyyyyy

I downloaded Ani Phyo's rawveganradio's interview. It was fantastic! Very short and to the point. What I like most about her is that she is extremely in her approach to raw foods. NO preaching, NO teaching....just a message of delivering ideas/tips on how to create awesome raw foods with minimal ingredients and minimal time. YES there are a few dehydrator recipes and such, but herbook found here and blog are totally worth the time and money. One of the best raw food uncook books in my opinion.

Lastly (for today) I have gotten a few emails from fantastic people and I want to say that I am so grateful to the universe that my blog and story on welikeitraw have inspired so many. I remember when I first embarked on this journey, I was SO alone. If I had someone to contact, it would have made all the difference I believe. So PLEASE feel free to contact me with questions (I'm not a doctor:), comments, concerns and I will be full of happy bubbles to help in any way that I can.
Off to enjoy the bliss.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Cacao...say WOW!

"Let there be peace on Earth and let it begin with me"- Sy Miller & Jill Jackson

Today (with the assistance of a raw chocolate bliss enhancer) I felt the most extreme sense of peace. I can't hardly explain it. I often experience a "fruit high" from all of the sugar, but this was like no other....ahhhhhhh

I concocted a maca/cacao/banana/almond mylk shake and it was a great hit. The little princess enjoyed it as well. We both spent the rest of the day chasing one another and staring off into the neverlands.
"Essentially, cacao makes one look, feel and behave younger, allows one to increase their psychic powers, as well as east less and lose weight!" - Avocado & Shazzie. (excerpt from Naked Chocolate )
Today was just one of those effortless, easy, wonderful days. I had tons to do and just didn't feel like doing it. I wanted to kiss and snuggle with my Tootsie Pop (Kennedy) and we had a great day. She spent time at the library and we clowned around at home.
No exercise today, but I did splurge quite a bit on my raw chocolate treats. I don't live anymore in a world of guilt surrounding my food choices so it matters not! I enjoyed every last bit and I have a feeling tomorrow will be a day just like this one!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Becoming Jayna'

I saw an amazing movie today. Becoming Jane is a great movie about a wonderful woman and extremely talented authoress. I'm sure most know about her great works...Pride and Predjudice and
Persuasion . I was so inspired. Perhaps I was more affected than most by this film b/c I have always been a writer at heart. Her fierce spirit and determination NOT to sacrifice herself for the sake of others' thoughts about her life was vastly fascinating. I have always been a fan and highly recommend this film to every and anyone!

On another media note...Shazzle Dazzle was featured on Raw Summit today. You can hear it before 8:00pm Aug. 22nd. Listen to Shazzle Dazzle. This womyn is absolutely one of the most inspirational, blessed, ecstatic and highly influential beings I have ever encountered. Every interview that she's done, every book or article that she has written has spoken directly to my soul. I can hardly describe exactly how dead on she is about seeminly everything! I am amazed (always) with her positive spirit and glowing personality.

Today was an amazingly simple raw day. I went to the farmer's market in the rain and had a wonderful time. I got tons of nectarines, peaches, fresh corn, beets, prune plums...yummmmmmmmmmm I had the most massive, delicious salad leaf/spinach about 15 cups, 1 ear fresh corn, red onion, raw pickles ( a must have for me), cherry tomatoes, lime, 1 avocado and herbamare. I have found that I can eat about 15c of lettuce per salad. My mouth is watering just thinking about it. oh my....yummmmmmyyyyy I am kinda hungry thinking about it.

I also rebounded for 15 mins, did YBB for 20 mins and some serious stretching.
Tomorrow will be a day one in the same. Massive raw food, searching for an abundance of love and beauty in my little one's eyes, and envisioning my bright future.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Look At Me!!!!!!!!!!!

Check me out on !!!!!!

They featured my story and I feel so honored :-)

One Step ataTime

I am constantly reminding myself that just taking one step at a time is so crucial to my development. Sometimes I can dive in head first and then have to s-l-o-w down. It's okay to slow down. I have started with the basics. Instead of complicating my diet, I have made things really simple for right now and I feel good about that.

My life is all about loving. Loving what I am doing everyday....loving the skin I'm in......loving life. Dr. D said it best when he said, "I believe it is time that we all started loving ourselves a lot more, and that we demonstrate that love by nourishing our bodies with foods that love us back". WOW. How amazing is that?

What that means to me is to eat the foods that make me feel really good and stay FAR away from what makes me feel really bad. I know that the plethora of uncook books can make anyone overwhelmed who is just starting out, but I have to admit I grew to LOVE them. Most of the food didn't love me back though. I found myself with the same psychological issues with food as I did with cooked food. I suffered the same addictions/cravings etc.

After my 7 day detox, I went right back to overeating fats. I swore to myself that I wouldn't but I did. THIS time around I am doing so much better. I have come up with a plan that works for me. I am not getting nearly as much fitness in as I would like, but my daughter starts school for the first time at the end of next week, and I will be able to exercise regularly then.

Here's what's working....

1. drinking water when I first get up and waiting an hour to eat breakfast

2. having my fat in the middle of my day at my biggest meal and then NO more fat for the day

3. having fruits cut up and ready to eat allllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the time.

Here's what I need to work on......

1. finding more time for fitness

2. getting enough rest

3. taking time in the morning to get centered (waking up with my preschooler makes it hard to find "me" time in the morning
So, I'm off to be inspired, to play with my daughter and to take in all that the universe has for me on this dreary, rainy day

Friday, August 17, 2007

Cacao high and fresh produce

I haven't been able to tune in to any of the Raw Summit calls when they happen at 8pm, but I have been able to catch a few on the 24 hr podcast. I made a special effort to hear Gela's interview. She is so inspirational. Her calm spirit and easy nature, as well as, her soothing voice are almost hypnotizing. Nevermind the fact that she lost 160lbs!!!!!!!!!, she is a phenomenonal woman with an amazing spirit.

She made some very good points that resonated with me and will stay with me forever. She is such an enlightened soul. She and I have such similar stories and journeys with raw food and food in general! I have lost 63 lbs and had many of the same food issues and addictions. I have since been working on eating 811 and it seems to be the only thing that can truly work for me. Like Gela, I don't want to never be able to enjoy some complicated raw gourmet dishes, just very much in moderation.

Today my lovely princess and I made our way in the blazing heat to the farmer's market and stumbled upon some very very yummy goodies. Our kitcken is loaded (until Tuesday) with local loving produce. We hurried home and ate watermelon which was deliciously wonderful. Tonite I will snack some more on plums and will have some fresh raw corn for dinner.

I had some of Shazzie's Intacta raw chocolate bar today. Whooooaaaaaaaaa.....cracoa high! I was rebounding all yesterday afternoon with the princess while on my cacao high. It lasted for several hours. It was amazing all the estastic love and bliss that raw chocolate made with love can make us feel.

I finally got in my 20 mins of yoga today and I felt amazing. I have to remember the awesome feeling that I have AFTER I workout and then perhaps I can get back on track. I am in transition now and am being very gentle with myself these days. No beating myself up. NO regrets. NO harsh words. All positivity and love. All peace and understanding. After all...I'M WORTH IT!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Progess Not Perfection!

Days where I consume large quantities of fruit are just better days. I feel so clear and so light and ready for the world. Why then is it that I have been eating such high quanitites of raw fat (nuts, olives, avocados) again? I couldn't figure it out until I realized JUST how much energy and attention I give to trying to avoid them. (The Secret is......) STOP concentrating on avoiding them and EMBRACE my love for the foods that love me.

That is what I have done beginning today and for the rest of my life**
Overeating fats again have made me lethargic and quite cranky. I haven't been exercising the way that I wanted to and today I have 40mins of YBB planned for this afternoon and I am excited to move my body again.
What I have really realized (yet again) is that progess toward my goal is key ....NOT perfection. I would rather learn my lessons and enjoy the journey than to feel that I have done everything perfectly. Is there such a thing I wondered? I realized that perfect is relative to every individual person.

MY idea of perfection is having the day pass and knowing that I consumed foods that were healthy for my body and spirit and that I engaged in physical activity (yoga, cardio, ST) and that I felt some of the infinite and abundant love that is present.
My daughter's outlook on life is so pure and energetic. I have been allowing her to guide my days lately and I have been remembering the beauty in simplicity. So there you have it. I'm on a neverending journey toward simplicity, freedom, and my idea of perfection.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Post Detox Fall Off

Okay, so I finished the detox and for some reason I though that I could jump right back into eating fats and dried fruits....well, I couldn't!! Not only was it too big of a psychological jump, physically I felt horrible. My stomach feels like I swallowed a brick and until recently, I felt hot and dizzy. Note to self: "Slow down on the fat"

To other news....I realized that I can eat a much higher fruit caloric intake and feel just fine..actually better than fine....I feel amazing. Dr. Doug Graham is on to something with 80-10-10. I am fine with eating larger quantities of fruit than anything else. I HAVE to have my green smoothies and salads and know that it is a better balance than the "eat it just b/c it's raw" syndrome that so many fall prey too.

Angela Stokes (one of my inspirations in the raw world) announced her engagement to Matt Monarch and I can feel the love radiating off of her web page. It is so beautiful when two kindred spirits find one another. Blessing to them.
The pic above is of sweet flax crackers. I am learning to eat them sparingly or not eat them at all. Ah ah the lessons.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Detox Days 4-7 & Lazy Hazy Summer Days

Finishing the detox took more psychological strength that I thought. It wasn't a very difficult process (eat this, don't eat that), but I suddenly started craving raw desserts.....raw junk food. I really realized how big a part those things have played in my daily raw life.

I spent time in meditation and prayer and I journalled heavily. I feel like a changed woman. This detox was the best thing I have ever done. I have decided to try a low-fat raw vegan approach. I will of course still indulge in desserts and eat some messy combonation meals, but not NEARLY as often. I felt so light and airy and finally experienced a true "fruit high"....ahhhhhhhhhhhh what an amazing feeling. I have been indulging in some very delicious green smoothies. I HAVE to drink them really cold and what an awesome experience. I have chillin in the fridge right now (spinach, strawberry, banana)...yummmmmmyyyyy

Today this beautiful Sunday holds love and bliss; sunshine and smiles. Tonite is the new moon and Leo and I am excited about the renewal that this time is bringing for me.

The summer sun has me with an attitude of gratitude these days. I love taking long walks along the river while watching my daughter's curiousity grow and see her bond in nature. I will post some of the yummy smoothies I have been making lately.

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Just do it!

Oh...just another note.

If you are thinking of going raw.....thinking of detoxing......

JUST DO IT! Just take the first step and you will NOT regret it!

Detox Day 3

Day 3 went very well. They said if I could make it past the third day then I was home free....well call it home!
I feel great. I am in a "melon" kinda mood and have been eating watermelon and cantaloupe galore. Tonite my husband and I went out to a restaurant and I was very happy and proud to get a salad (minus the iceberg...ick!) and dress it with lemon. The waitress and I got into a long raw food discussion and she was intrigued....I believe a seed was planted.
I have a friend who has recently really gotten healthy. I am so proud and so happy when people take control over their lives and their health. Nothing but good can come of it. Speaking of which...I sent my mom a box of great books today to get her on a healthier track. Of course, I sent Shazzie's Detox Delights and Dr. McKeith's You are What you Eat. I hope they do her some good.
I went for a 1.5 hr walk today with my family in the heat and humidity but I felt great outdoors. For some reason, I just wanted to be in nature. It felt great.
Tomorrow is Day 4 and I SO looking forward to it. My saladacco should be here by then and I will make a yummy dinner with it. I have a company lunch tomorrow and am looking forward to talking about raw foods there. They are very interested.
"Be the change you want to see in the world"- Ghandi

Monday, August 6, 2007

Detox Day 2

It's time to see things differently. Day 2 of the detox is bringing to the surface more emotional issues than it is physical food stuff. I am dealing with it all though. I can't believe how much I ate fat and how much I miss it!! A salad just wasn't the same...I actually quit eating it and made a smoothie of the greens!
My daughter went to bed extremely late tonite and I STILL did my planned workout. I lifted upperbody free weights today. Ahhhhh did it feel good. I get a little high from lifting weights. It's a serious hobby of mine. Ever since I got back from New Orleans 5 weeks ago, I've been kinda "off" my game, but I am slowly getting back on the wagon boy oh boy does it feel great.
Back to the detox (I'm all over the place today) that I am eating a ton of fresh fruit, I can FEEL the digestion which makes me wonder what is happening (digestion wise) when I eat HUGE HUGE flax crackers with like 6 ingredients? Will I stop eating them? NO. Will I eat them as often? YES. I am learning so much about my body and am really considering the 92 day juice feast before it is too cold. Anyone else thinking of juice feasting? Maybe we can support one another. I am going to order Angela Stokes' Juice Feasting book (
It is also really nice NOT to have to worry about what I am going to eat.
I normally make meal time kinda elaborate and am always flipping something in the dehydrator, but for this week all of that is on hold. It is nice to only have to peel, cut or chop what I am going to eat. Tonite I made the mistake of eating 2 frozen bananas and strawberries at will sit kinda heavy all nite long and interfere with my digestion, but I worked out late and therefore ate later than I would have liked. I do NOT believe in being hungry EVER! and so I ate it and it was delicious. I am off to get rest (an important part of this detox) and let the fairies dance around my dreams and drift me off to never-never-land.

Sunday, August 5, 2007

Weird Post and Detox Day 1

The first day of the detox (all water) wasn't as rough as I thought it would be. I ate well before the fast started, but not too heavy. I feel great today. I ate a mono-meal of watermelon and later one nectarine. The taste of the watermelon was SO sweet and delicious. I never thought watermelon could taste so good. It was nice not to have to worry about what to eat for a day though. Also, I have learned that stopping eat earlier makes my body feel SO MUCH better when I wake up. I know that I consume too much fat and rely too heavily on it throughout my rawsome day.

Also, I have been thinking about why I try to mimic so many of my old food addictions. Do I think it's somehow more psychologically healthy because it's raw? Am I making the "mistake" that so many others make in thinking I can eat anything that I want to just because it is 100% raw?

There will NEVER be a day when dehydrated flax crackers will be more appealing or taste better than a juicy, ripe watermelon. The suffering comes from my mental, emotional connection with the food. Will I never eat my gourmet raw foods? Of course I will eat them... and ENJOY them, however after this 7 day detox, I will be much more aware of the messy combinations that I have been eating and of overeating using avocados and olives as a means to feel "full".

1 down and 6 more days to go, I am excited to embark upon this journey towards better health.

Friday, August 3, 2007

Farmer's Market Finds and Paying it Forward

My daughter and I went to the Farmer's Market today in the blazing heat and got some yummy eats for the weekend for the family....zucchini, tomatoes, strawberries, cantaloupe, peaches and nectarines. That's all the budget would allow, but oh how grateful we are for those items...yummmm.

The other day we had a friend and her little son over and Kennedy (my daughter) gave all of her toys to him. He was so excited to see all of the new things and I felt great to be teaching her at such a young age that giving and sharing is not only nice, but essential for our planet. By giving those toys to him we ...

*prevented his mom and dad from having to buy them...therefore saving money

*taught Kennedy that sharing and giving things is nice


*put a blessing out into the universe sure that one day in our time of need, it shall return

On an entirely different note, I have been really struggling with cravings for raw sweets. I know TOM is to blame for a tiny tiny bit of it, but I am NOT liking what I am experiencing! On cooked garbage, I was an awesome high raw vegan and had totally eliminated certain foods that were "triggers". Well, for some reason on raw I thought that I should be able to eat EVERYTHING. After all , "it is raw isn't it?" Well the answer is NO!

I ordered and finally received today Dr. Graham's 80/10/10 diet. I am reading it and can't put it down. I have also been exploring the "diet" online for about a little over a week and a fellow rad blogger ( recently told me that is working for her as well.

I am about to take part in a 7 day detox starting tomorrow at 6pm. I will keep the blog updated daily about my emotional/physical changes, as well as, my new diet. I am excited to look at raw in a new way and to discover the true health that I sought for so long ago when I learned of raw.

Ready, Set...Detox!

I am about to embark upon a 7 day detox starting tonite at 6pm. There will be another free detox starting Aug. 18th if you are interested you can sign up at ( I am interested to think about having to detox on the raw food diet. Is it because I have been filling myself dehydrated things far too much? Not getting in enough green juices?

Now that I am reading Dr. Graham's book, I am changing SO much of what I thought about raw foods. This is all a natural progression along the path towards vibrant health for me. I have been consuming too many nuts/desserts/dehydrated flax crackers and although I am eating my fair share of nuts and veggies, I am not impressed with my health lately. I have been bloated, feeling tired easily and overall not well some days. I know that salt, herbamare and seasonings are keeping me "stuck" and this detox is going jumpstart my path towards health and happiness.

Today Kennedy got her first!!!!!! She named them Dorothy and Abuela. I was so delighted to see her get into her nuturing role. She kissed the bag that the fish were in and she wanted to hug the fish tank! What a peaceful little angel we are cultivating in this house. She is so lovely and full of joy, it is an honor to parent her...

So, I will keep the blog updated everyday with my emotional, psychological, and physical developments as I proceed with this detox. I am SO ready for change. SO ready to get old habits over with and ready to put new healthy, happy lifestyle habits in their place.

Thursday, August 2, 2007

Times they are a Changin'

Green juice is so cleansing and I love it on an empty stomach!! My daughter is sniffing around and I believe will soon be ready for it again. She used to drink it as a young tot, but has since grown to reject it :( Part of the reason is because I am realling "greening" it up with heavy use of kale (fav) and collards.

It has been extremely hot here...almost unbearably so. I have taken up creating make-believe land in my home with my daughter and remembering what it's like to be a child full of wonder and imagination. Reading Anastatia ( is helping me create my dream world. It isn't a bad idea to take a break sometimes and just...believe. Here are a few things I believe in....

*the power of love. Love between families. Love for all people on Earth

*health and happiness for all people.

*the power of forgiveness

*raw and living foods' ability to change your entire life

*peace for all

I believe that true change starts from within. The only way that we create change in the world is to change ourselves. The WORK is grueling, but necessary for a better world. Ghandi said it best, "Be the change you want to see in the world." No words are more true. We can't control, change or WISH to change the actions/opinions/judgments of others. We are to live in conjunction with them and allow light and energy to shine thru them in their own time and space.

I know raw fooders who feel so RIGHT. They know that this is the best way to eat and live, yet they exist from a place of egotistic domimance. They talk badly about those who don't eat this way, and judge others. Well, I remind that that we too used to be there. Hoping to figure it all out. Wishing that we knew better. and that we do we have a responsiblity to share it with others.

Speaking of ways I used to eat...I've been craving sweets like mad lately! I've been wanting them all the time. I think it's time to go over all of my menus and eliminate some things that have been giving me problems. I have serious food issues and who was I to think it would dissappear once I went raw?!?!?

Here in lies the point: I don't want to have an unhealthy relationship with RAW food, as I did with COOKED food. Angela Stokes's book with the view of approaching raw food with the twelve steps, as well as the lovely V. Butenko's 12 Steps to Raw Food (

I am in the spirit of change and growth...separation and renewal. So much is happening in and around me....I guess this is what happens to everyone who embarks on the raw food journey.... we free up the time our body and brains normally take digest and process food and use that renewed energy to change ourselves and the world!


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