Thursday, June 26, 2008

My Birthday is the NEW new year.

Okay... so in a few minutes I will be 28 years old!!! How fantastic is that?!?!? I love bdays and usually have not so great experiences on them. I usually leave it up to other people to do something nice/special , but this year I took over control 100%. I am feeling a little crowded with the kids here. They literally follow me all over the house. I hurt my nose b/c one of them was behind me and when I turned around to cut the light off, she bumped into my face!! I'm serious. Below I have a great exercise that I intend to do in the steamy hot bathtub tomorrow morning.

Autobiographical Sketch
"Do this writing ritual on your birthday. Write a letter to yourself about yourself, and in it describe yourself and your life. Do this at one sitting. Let the words flow and write whatever comes to mind. Write for at least twenty minutes. Write long hand with a pen on paper or type into your computer. If you wish, reply to some of the following questions to stimulate your writing process: When and where were you born? Where did you grow up? Who was part of your family and what was family life like? What ethnicities and nationalities make up your ancestral heritage? Where did you go to school? What were some good childhood memories? What were some difficult ones? What kind of jobs have you worked? What are your hobbies? What are some of your favorites colors, creatures, plants, gemstones, places, music? What has your spiritual journey been like how you were raised and how you came to embrace your present form of spiritual orientation? What is important to you? What meaning have you made so far of life?

After you have written your autobiographical sketch, read it over, and if you are inclined to do so, add any additional thoughts and experiences that come to mind. Keep your autobiographical sketch in a place where you can readily access it. The following year on your birthday, write another autobiographical sketch without looking at the first one. When you are done, take the first one out and compare it with the one you just did. What parts are similar and what are different? How have your views of yourself and your life changed over time? Note your perspectives. This ritual can be repeated every year or at some other interval, such as every five or ten years. Although the purpose of this sketch writing ritual is focused on aiding you in your growth in personal identity and understanding, you may want to keep a copy of one of your versions with your will so that it can comfort loved ones after you have died and help them remember and understand your view of yourself and your life. "

I have small plans for my birthday. Just dinner with a close friend...a small celebration of this wonderful year that we are in and how great I feel about myself and my life. I am making another strawberry cheezecake sans vanilla (forgot it at the store) and I will take a picture of this one.. I promise. I will also make sure to get pix of me in my new bday skirt. It's so awesome.

So this next year.. age 28 ( I know I don't look a day over 21 !) is going to be a fantastic year. I can feel it. I treat my bday like new year's so I make a list of goals and plans and dreams and visions and set out in motion to make it happen. One thing FOR SURE is that I miss miss miss miss miss miss miss (did I say miss?) weight training. I am going to finish organizing everything in my house and go back into my personal gym. Because as much as I love the real gym, getting there is unrealistic for my single mommie life.

So here's to making 28 in 2008 the best friggin year possible. Time to dream it... and do it. "Laissez Les Bon Temps Roulez" which means "Let the good times roll" in French. Y'all know I'm from New Orleans!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

You should know Dhru !

Okay.. let's just be honest. The first time I met Dhru in person, I fell in love. NO seriously! Well, as much as you can fall in love with someone you just met in person. At the Successfully Raw Event in NYC...he opened up my mind to the concept of "falling still" and my meditations have been different ever since. When we went out dancing that nite..I followed the spirit and told him that he was one of the most beautiful human beings that I had ever met. I meant it too. I had previously read that he likes tall girls (his words). Well, I am only 5'0" and of course I thought to myself, "He likes tall girls b/c he hasn't met ME yet" :-)

His energy is so amazing. His ease of nature is so charismatic. It's abundantly clear that he lives in the now... lives in the flow of the universe. It is easy to feel a little mesmerized in his presence and it's not his flawless bronze skin and award winning smile (though they are equally captivating)'s his spirit that is so SOLID that it transmits through his pores. It's his observant nature...

So for the probably 3 raw fooders who don't know of him...this post is dedicated to that awesome man who is changing the face of the young raw food movement and making info SO easily accessible. Check him out in the following places....

Dhrumil's Myspace

Dhrumil's Twitter Page

Dhrumil's Webpage

Dhru at We Like It Raw

Dhru's GI2MR Page

So don't believe me... go to one of these MANY places and get inspired by this awesome man and his beautiful face.. I mean his energy ;-)

In light and the love of this movement,

Lil Wayne and Cheezecake

I was soooooooo excited to see Wayne perform just now on the BET closing of the awards. His brother who is here for the summer sat sleepy eyed watching him perform while nodding his head up and down to the music.

Ok...this picture isn't of the cheezecake that I made, but as you will read later... I was being very lazy today and just didn't wanna get the camera. After you see this photo, you will laugh at the one I post of my cheezecake tomorrow!

I made a strawberry cheeszcake today and sorry to say I didn't take any photos. I was just being lazy and didn't wanna come up the steps to get the camera. But it came out SO good. I sort of sampled it... well I always make extra basic cheesecake filling and covered it with fruit and had a was so good. My nephew was licking the bowl.

Today was one of those long, hot days where nothing seems to get done. I am going to finish drying my hair and get things ready for Kay's OT tomorrow morning 15 miles away!

Hope everyone had a rawiffic day!

Monday, June 23, 2008

Just another Manic Monday

Get Ready
Get Set
Stretching..breathing..turning away from the noise
and letting go.

So it's Manic Monday and I have tonssssss to do. This will be a short post b/c I have 30 mins of the kids' nap to sneak in some yoga. This was me yesterday sweating it out on the mat. Letting the frustrations of this situation go. I felt much better afterwards too!

So today I am trying to keep my intake simple.. in line with how I am feeling right now. Trying to simplify things..break things down and go with the flow.

Promise a great post later today!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Super Sunny Sunday

Are the kids acting like they ate crackberries for breakfast= yes.

Is it driving me insane= no... but I almost let it!

I have left them to their own devices (not wise) so that I could lie on my closet floor and meditate.. yes just me and Buddha in the closed closet for some much needed alone time (get your minds out of the gutter!)

I wanted to photograph a picture of the smoothie I had this morning, but I drank it sooooo quickly, just didn't wanna put it down to go upstairs and get the bad. It was so good. 1/2c cashews, 1/2c cacao nibs, 1 tbsp agave, 2 bananas, 1/2c water, & boat loads of ice.. blend and enjoy. More ice makes it like an ice cream almost, and less ice (or more liquid) makes it a smoothie consistency... yum yum.

Last nite I thought a lot about eliminating... people/places/things that aren't serving me. Well, I've been working on this a LOT lately and so in the spirit of elimination, I ate 2 cups of prunes and 2 quarts of water. Needless to say, this morning was GREAT. ;-) Well, if elimination is what I had in mind, so did my body! So, I got some more prunes at the store today and will soak them and give the soak water to my daughter and some of the prunes will be blended with banana and eaten as a smoothie. Maybe I could sneak some to the other kiddos!

So not much to report today other than it's a gorgeous Sunny Sunday and I am so grateful for it. In the midst of all the chaos and noise in this house, I am finding time to "fall still" and stay in the moments with gratitude and love.

So even if it isn't sunny right now where you are, stop and breathe sunshine into your heart. I'm smiling....won't you join me? :-)

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Love yourself today.. Have the best day EVER!

Just wanted to make a quick blog about having the best day ever. I am NOT going to let anything or anyone stand in the way of the glory of this day. So if you are reading this early in the morning...or whenEVER... make a vow to yourself to have the strength to "accept the things you cannot change, courage to change the things you can, and the wisdom to know the difference." And just make a list/plan so that you do everything that you need to do to make this day the best day ever.

Sometimes we feel like we need to be the "perfect" size before we can truly live our lives. Or that we need to get a Vitamix before we can start drinking green smoothies, or get a dehydrator before we can be raw. Well, I can honestly tell you that when we are in that mind frame that "perfect day" never comes. I speak from experience. When I lived in a state of being dissatisfied with my body, my life, my financial situation....all I DID accomplish was depression. The second that I said that I would be happy IN THE MIDST of it all, I blossomed bloomed and everything changed.

Me? I am going to start this morning with a green juice, a short message to myself in my journal (with kiddos crawling all over me asking a million questions), doing yoga for about 10 (in the same room as said kiddos, but at least getting it done), drink a massive green smoothie (my body is calling for them AND water today), put the kids down for a nap and read this amazing book I'm reading now and clean clean clean my house. Now THAT sounds like an amazing day.

What can you do RIGHT NOW TODAY that will help you to say that this Saturday June 21st was the best day ever? Whatever you can dream up... do IT !!! So chose one day to live in the moment... to soak up all the glory that this day has. I have....join me ;-)

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Brenda Cobb and Food Addiction

Brenda Cobb Before/After

" Brenda Cobb, our Founder and Director, overcame the early stages of breast and cervical cancer without the use of drugs or surgery by following the simple principles of detoxification and nutrition. She also got rid of allergies, acid reflux, indigestion, arthritis, obesity, age or liver spots, and gray hair. Her eyesight even improved! She looks and feels 10 years younger than she did 10 years ago. Brenda now devotes her life to educating others in this wonderful Truth. " (I stole that bio from her website ;-)

Just speaking to the power of raw foods...and very similar to my own personal journey with cancer and raw food (story for another time) this woman is soooooooo inspiring. Wish the institute was rawking and rolling back when I lived in ATL for five years!!! okay..maybe it was and I was just a doughnut eating, fried potato eating, twinkie chugging gyrl!!

Here is an article that I think is SO dead on food addictions.

"Deadly Food Addictions" -by Brenda Cobb

Are You addicted to food? I am! That’s right. Just as addicted as an alcoholic is to alcohol, I’am addicted to food. That’s what got me into trouble with my health…..bad diet, bad lifestyle! I turned to food for every reason imaginable, because I was happy, sad, lonely, depressed, frustrated, stressed, or bored. Whatever the reason, I had to eat, and I did!! Food called my name. If potato chips were in the house I had to eat them! Food gets on my mind and I can’t get it off. I’ve been obsessed with everything from chocolate candy to french fries. Food surrounds every activity that I do. Sound familiar?

Many of us including myself have become addicted to certain foods. When I read David Wolfe’s "Sunfood Diet Success System" I found out that with most people there are usually 5 or 6 foods that they are actually addicted to and have trouble releasing. These foods usually include: bread, baked potatoes, coffee, potato chips, corn chips, tofu, chocolate candy, fish, and/or cigarettes (not a true food but certainly an oral gratification) and even carrot juice. Most of these foods come from hybridized plants. I never thought about any of this stuff before I got cancer. Then I began to pay attention to food and its role in disease and in healing.

I learned about hybrid foods from Wolfe’s book where he brought to my attention that hybrid foods are "missing vital electrics." This is what Wolfe has to say about hybrids. "They are unnaturally high in sugar and off in the mineral ratios. Hybrid foods are devoid of proper mineral balance that all wild foods contain. So when we eat a lot of hybrid fruit, that leads to mineral deficiencies in our bodies. Not only are hybrid fruits and sweet, starchy vegetables unbalanced in minerals, it is eating too much of hybrid sweet fruit and sweet and starchy vegetables that causes the body to bring heavy minerals from the bones into the blood to buffer the hybrid sugar. This hybrid sugar is not completely recognized by the liver and pancreas. The minerals and sugar are spilled off into the urine. Hybrid sweet fruit and sweet starchy vegetables can over stimulate you and cause you to lose minerals."

So, what are hybrid foods? Hybrid foods are foods which will not grow in Nature. They are foods which must be nurtured and protected by humans or else they will be overcome by birds, insects, worms, fungi, and bacteria.

Some common hybrid fruits are: seedless apples, bananas, several date varieties like medjools, kiwis, seedless pineapples, seedless citrus fruit, seedless grapes, seedless persimmons, seedless watermelons. Common hybrid vegetables include: beets, carrots, corn, and potatoes. Common hybrid nuts and seeds include: cashews, oats, rice, and wheat. Brown, white, and "wild" rice are hybrids. Commercial "soft" wheat is a hybrid. Alfalfa sprouts and most commercially available legumes are hybrids.

Hybrid foods are attacked by different forms of fungi and are much more susceptible to early decay. Hybrid foods can feed fungal conditions like candida whereas non-hybrid or wild fruit will not lead to such a condition.

Hybrid foods are everywhere so if you eat you’ve got to eat some hybrids. If you want to make eating hybrids work for you David Wolfe recommends that you eat small amounts of the fruits and vegetables. Mix bananas with fat (avocados, nuts, olives) and it will lessen the hybrid effect on the system. If you eat more green-leafed vegetables and avocados, nuts, or olives with hybrid sweet fruits or vegetables it will decrease their effect on the blood sugar and increase the utility of elements in the food. Hybrid grains, and legumes should be soaked and sprouted, and absolutely never cooked. As long as they are raw, the body can draw nutrients from them and can deal with them.

Eat organic locally grown produce as much as possible. Eat food that is in season. Identify the hybridized foods (raw and cooked) in your diet. Make a decision to replace these foods with more natural foods as soon, and as often, as possible. See and feel the difference that eating the right foods can make in your life. I had no idea how bad food was making me feel until I cleaned up my act and started eating raw and living foods. For the first time I can remember feeling really good. Instead of wanting to take a nap after eating I felt energized. The pain and stiffness in my joints disappeared. My depression went away. My health returned.

It’s not easy to change a lifetime of bad eating habits, but it’s the most important thing that you can do to really improve your health. It’s not only how you prepare your foods, it’s making the right selections of foods to prepare, and then eating those foods in the right combinations.
Addictions can be very difficult to break, but it can be done. First you have to want to make the changes. For me it took a life threatening situation (cancer) to get my attention and make me want to make changes in my diet. For some people it can be extra weight that needs to come off, for others it could be a very serious disease that wakes them up. Next you want to pinpoint what foods you are addicted to and when you eat these foods. Begin to replace your "bad foods" with foods that are good for you. Feel the difference when you eat fresh, organic, raw and living foods. The more you eat this way and the cleaner your body becomes, the less you will crave the old "bad food". The longer you eat healthy, the easier it becomes.

Detoxing the body is important if you want to give up food addictions. As long as there is residue of the bad foods in your body, you will continue to crave those foods. So, don’t wait to change your ways. Think about your life and your health. Is a moment of gratification on your lips and in your mouth worth a lifetime of disease, pain, and suffering. Every disease comes from toxicity and deficiency in the body, and all toxicity and deficiency is directly related to every bite you put into your mouth. Everything you eat effects your overall health. Make a conscious decision to change your bad habits and to eat right and heal! Get the information and support you need to help you make those changes, and then Just Do It!!

***Brenda Cobb is the Director of the Living Foods Institute1530 Dekalb Ave., Atlanta, Georgia 30307You can reach her by calling 404-524-4488or if you live outside the Atlanta area, call toll free: 1-800-844-9876

Being Raw does NOT erase food Addiction

Day in the Life

Kay at therapy swinging the morning away!

Green smoothie topped with Strawberries
Close up of green goodness

People keep asking me if I will date and I say, "Date? I'm already
having a love affair with greens!"
Hungry Yet?

Get Ready, Get Set, GO!
Yesterday I made an awesome smoothie/pudding. I say smoothie/pudding because it was too thick to be a smoothie and too thin to be a pudding. I can't remember where I found the recipe, , but it was amazing. 1/2 cucumber, 1/2 avocado, juice of a lime, hempseeds, ice, coconut meat and coconut water. I felt sooooo alive when I ate it!

I am NOT used to having all these kids and noise in my house. I am taking measure to get used to it. My daughter (Autism and all) is very peaceful by nature..very quiet. These kids are kinda loud and a bit out of control. My peaceful house + thier loud out of control nature= LOTS of yoga and "falling still".

My lovely friend Britanie is having a hard time right now with food issues and I am SO familiar with it all. I'm mentioning it b/c I know there are a lot of people suffering from food addictions and don't know where to turn. They think raw food is the ANSWER...but truth is, it is only a PART of the answer. We have to do the real work if we want the food cravings/addictions to go away. I am not trying to pretend to be a specialist, but I do speak from experience. Long, hard experience. This raw journey has taken me on a physical transformation that I never could have dreamed of. I have done raw EVERY kind of way. Seriously. High fat raw, gourmet raw, 80-10-10, juicing mostly, smoothies mostly...all of it. Truth is, I vary week to week, day to day. No one knows the exact right way that YOU should eat to nourish your body. Sometimes saying 100% raw is supposed to mean: better, superior, stronger, more willed. It does NOT. It all depends are where you want to be. There are some EXTREMELY healthy high-raw cooked eaters. And some not-so-healthy 100% raw food eaters.

I do however know that you CAN gain weight on raw food. I have done it. YES I HAVE. There have been times when a pound of nuts and 5 bananas seemed like a good idea. Well, three days in a row = fat on my ass. Bloat...constipation...and aggrevation. My point is that the best advice I can give someone on this raw journey is to be gentle with yourself. Be kind to yourself when you "fall off the wagon". Be as raw as you can be for the phase you are in in your life. Take it slowly. It took years to get to where you will take time to change those habits. ease into it all. I promise you, it will happen.

So I leave you with these thoughts: Take a few minutes today to ask yourself why you want to be raw (whether you are or aren't)...envision yourself with the life and body you want and start tiny steps towards making it a reality.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Teacher is the Student

The Yogi in Training
Strawberry vegan jello (they loved it)
My nephew and I today.. PEACE
Amber in full Lotus..meditating :)

My little cousin is SO into the yoga.. I am seeing her ALL day long practicing asanas. I bought her her first journal and she is keeping notes on EVERYTHING that she likes. She has found a green smoothie recipe that vibes with her (she put it in the journal) . I let her get on the Internet to research yoga books for teens/tweens/kids (she put all the titles in the journal) .

She and I had a long girl's talk yesterday. She was crying and I could SO see myself in her when I was her age except I didn't have anyone to talk to. I made a promise to her, that although we live far apart, we will stay connected. I will send her with a prepaid cell with a few minutes to call me if she is having a "girl emergency"..and I gave her my very first yoga mat that I owned. She was so excited and grateful.

Here is how the story is playing out: she is re-inspiring me. I am looking at things with a different perspective from the "teacher" side of things. Just in explaining to her, I am re-explaining to myself. Her outlook is so fresh.. so new.. so OPEN. I am now the student.. I sit back and watch her progress thru 8 mins of vigorous asanas with excitement, patience and wonder...breathing new life into the old practice.

My daughter had a bad day today. Not enough rest..change of routine= disaster in Autism World. So we blew off the farmer's market and came home..opened all the windows and took a rest. She appreciated that. There was one other meltdown after that, but it was all good. She went to bed happy. I just paused the post to run give her a kiss and hug and thank her for choosing me as her mom! :-)

Well, today's diet was awesome, but somehow creepy yummy organic walnuts (aka danger food) wound up in my hands again. I only bought a small amount, but still! Few free peaches and plums, banana/walnuts, 1 cantaloupe (cold and delicious), avocado/tomato salad and odds and ends things.

Oh I am really feeling cukes right now. My body just needs them. I go with the flow when my body is craving something.. it's also craving dulse. I obviously am missing minerals.. gotta get on the ball! This raw journey has been amazing. full of ups and downs and twists and turns.. new people... Most of the old people left or I karate kicked them out of my life with vegan stilettos. :-)
Tomorrow "they" are calling for rain.. so after Kay's therapy, I will let the kids go into the garage and body paint and draw chalk on the ground and bring a blanket and we will have a picnic. I think they will enjoy that.

Wisdom. Couldn't have said it better

Just came across this and HAD to post it. So right on.
A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways,but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.

We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

A little ..a lot exhausted.

I'm really exhausted. Single mommiedum is tiring most times. :-)It's after midnite again and I am finally going to be making my way to bed... no seriously... in like 5 minutes and 31 seconds. :-)

Today I was really energized and feeling wonderful and then...slow...slow.. crash. I felt so exhausted, so tired. I know that sometimes I got on auto-pilot just getting things done, but I need to slow down. I taught the kids yoga today and that was very rewarding for me. Tonite my 12 y/o little cousin was crying b/c of how happy she is to have learned about being healthy and doing yoga. We had a nice girly moment. Can't wait until my girl is a teenager!!!

SO I can barely keep my eyelids open, but I will leave you with this... Today's menu was so basic and simple. I asked the universe this morning for abundance and low-and-behold, I went to my grocery and the produce guy asks me if I want 20 lbs of bruised peaches... , "Uh.. YES YES YES" was my subtle answer ;-) Tons of awesome peaches, cuke/tomato/lettuce with lemon juice for dressing. Later I had blueberries and strawberries. yum yum yum

Tomorrow is a fun day of therapy for Kennedy and I am letting the kids have a picnic on the deck if it doesn't rain. They are oober excited. We will have a HUGE watermelon, peaches, straw/blueberries, cantaloupe and water. They are so excited to have the picnic and take a walk and do yoga.. THIS is getting better.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Hidden Lessons and Salad Oh yea!

Today I had the most massive salad EVER..

Huge head of red leaf organic lettuce
2 tomatoes
1 huge cucumber
raw pickles
1.5 avocados
red onion
lemon juice

yum yum yum

Drank 2 quarts of green smoothie.. NOT enough water though. The kids are here for the summer and it is Stress City. I had them doing yoga today. They loved it. My little cousin that's here is 12 years old. I talked with her today about how fortunate she is to have me. Wait wait.. I mean to be able to get a different perspective on life. When I was her age in New Orleans, all I knew is what everyone else knew. Mardi Gras, Popeye's chicken, Snowballs, Beignets.... junk food. I didn't know the word yoga until I went to college. I just told her wherever there is ANYTHING she wants to take away..take it, leave the rest. In that "lesson" I gave her..I learned so much. So I took a "lesson" away: We learn in teaching others.

She has gotten a notebook to write all her recipes down in. We did yoga together today.. just 10 mins and had her first green smoothie which she loved. Her mom was here for a day and she was able to get REALLY excited about raw foods and my entire lifestyle. She took notes and I could see it in her eyes that something clicked. So my prayer is that she walk away from this experience enriched, more aware and forever changed. I'm looking to learn, grow and change as well.

Oh and it felt great not to think about food much, to just eat as necessary and with the nuts GONE... I can focus. Those with food issues know EXACTLY what i mean by that. Tomorrow will be as easy a raw day as any. Lots of business to take care of tomorrow. And I HAVE to catch up on my sleep.

Well, I'm off to slumberland. I have to be up in 4 hours.. I know I know... NOT conducive to my new "sleep more" plan, but I'm working on it.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Bill of Rights Part II

I'm continuing my EMPOWERED womyn GODDESS flow from yesterday. So, my little cousin (12) arrived today at 11pm from Texas. Oh will this be an interesting summer. But I am looking to learn from her. She knows NOTHING about raw food, or healthy food for that matter. She curious about yoga and using the dehydrator, but does admit it's a bit "weird". I told her, "I LOVE being weird."
I have been doing a lot of thinking (I know in my spare time) about rights. How fundamentally basic they are, and yet how we don't often think about them. Okay, sure G.W. has most of our country in fear of one thing or another and the WAR in Iraq was used as a smokescreen for something bigger under the guise that our RIGHTS and liberties were at stake. Well let me tell, we have rights that we all take for granted everyday. I have chosen to make a list of empowering, life-affirming rights. Feel free to type them up; copy & paste em; laminate em and carry em in your wallet.

Jayna's Bill of Rights...

I have a right to put myself first.
I have a right to say "No."
I have a right to time alone even when others want my company.
I have a right to to disagree with what others say.
I have right to define who I am even if others disagree
I have a right to change my mind.

SO much of what we do and how we live comes from how we feel about ourselves. We can all assess our current life status and see how it is a direct reflection of what you think about yourself, your life, your worth. I know the power of this realization. I used to be an overweight, unhealthy, sad little person. Now I am a gorgeous, healthy, thriving, ecstatic superbeing. ALL with the change of my mind.

Now I know that people come here for raw food ideas and recipes and I promise to get back to it, but I know how important this part of the process is. We needn't skip over the real work that is to be done when transitioning or living this raw lifestyle.

Well, As far as raw food goes... I mentioned that I threw all the nuts OUT... today was awesome. I didn't think about food much just ate as I was hungry, what I felt like eating. I think I had a huge fruit salad... a smoothie....few bananas...avocado/tomato/raw pickle dish...lots and lots of love in my food!

Monday I am back in the kitchen making corn/flax crackers; raw banana bread; and onion bread. I like to make a TON of stuff at once and store it b/c truth be told, I don't like the big mess that my gourmet raw makes!! I seriously want to make the cesar salad dressing from Raw Food Real World. I know I know I am so lazy not hyperlinking anything!!! Well, part of what kept me from blogging for so long was that I felt like it was becoming a chore a little bit and if I couldn't devote like 45 mins, then I wouldn't do it at all. Well, I would rather keep it simple and blog more rather than only blogging once a month.

Well, tomorrow I have a few plans with the kids and then my older cousin flys back to TX and my little cousin stays... I have full intentions on taking the hottest bubble bath ever when they go to bed tomorrow!!!

Friday, June 13, 2008

My Bill of Rights

Been thinking long and hard about the power of the word "NO" and how usually when we say no to other people we are saying "YES" to ourselves. I am not sure why in the hell I thought having a house full of kids right now would be a good idea, but guess what?? NOT so much... but I am going to to flow with it, b/c I've already said yes to them staying here, but inside that YES was a big fat NO to myself.. Ouchie. Why didn't I think I would want, hell need this time for myself?? It brings me back to my the place I am doing the most work on right now. There are lessons to be learned and I am learning them.

Today was a long, hot, stressful day... or so I thought it would be. After 2 meltdowns and 75, "stop that!"-s to my nephew, we drove 35 mins to a bday party only to have them fall asleep right before we pulled up! I thought this is a recipe for disaster.. I can A) skip the party, let em rest; B) Get ready for the meltdown/tantrum and go inside anyway; C) wake them up super gently, then get excited about the party and take a deep breath. What do you think I chose? C.. duh! It was a simple thing, but got me thinking about how much and how often we all wobble off the path of peace and tranquility b/c of these "stressful" moments. Truth be told... we could minimize most of our "stressful moments" by being more prepared, more ready for the day.

I turned this day around and have a rawsome time. I felt the pull back into my heavy nut binge ways, but didn't answer. I did well today and am feeling a little better. I have been exhausted lately and NO enzyme rich food will do that to you.

So as I have cleared the clutter and clatter out of my life, it's time to clean up my raw. I'm approaching 1 year truly 100% raw and it couldn't be a better time to get on track with my love for this food and this lifestyle. Get a routine. Get uncooking. Get it together. I soooo deserve it.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Random Thoughts

Random photos ... The top photo is of me, my sister Britanie and the lovely Lindsey....

Today was an awesome day. Although I have only slept 4 hrs.. I am so refreshed. My nephew arrived from Atlanta..and girl oh girl will I be busy this summer!! Went to the Autism Society's meeting and learned of really great pilot programs for adults with Autism. This is the first of the 50 states to do ANYTHING like this. Makes me very proud to live here. I was so overjoyed to hear about all they are doing to plan the futures of our kiddos.

I have been feeling this weirdness with my raw food... I'm eating 100% raw... NEVER wavered, but I'm not eating much life-force food. I am seriously feeling the draw back to nature a bit.. I got rid of the nuts in the house (BAD idea to have around when stress levels are high) and pulled in the greens. Tomorrow will be a better day. I'm feeling more centered and back on track.. I'm just taking my time.

This raw journey has taken me places, I NEVER thought I would travel. Was I overly happy in my marriage =NO.. before raw was I going to leave= probably not. This raw lifestyle has a way of shaking you to the core in unimaginable ways. Testing you, pulling at you.. until you take off the facade, the mask (whatever it may be) and then it leaves you exposed and raw and vulnerable. You can no longer hide from yourself. And THIS is the reason people don't stick with Raw.... they think it's about will power... old habits... lack of motivation. All those things play a key part, but it's about your spiritual readiness. Are you ready to be that bare? Are you ready to shift the paradigms and step into the scary unknown? Are you ready? Are you ready?

Are YOU ready? I am.. so join me... it's scary, crazy sexy fun!

EVERYTHING has changed

Firstly, to the lovely readers who were following me and felt disappointed by my absence... sorry lovelies.. my life has been shifting BIG TIME.

It's been so long I am not sure if I mentioned it, but after going to NYC and having the time of my life... I have...

~quit my job
~left my husband
~moved into a new apartment.

Told ya everything changed. I have so much to blog about.. write about..hopefully inspire you with. I can't even begin to put into words what transformed inside of me. I have been into raw foods since 2004. I've been 100% raw for almost one solid year.. I thought the transitioning was over. I lost the weight and felt and looked great. But OH NO. The real transition was just beginning. I woke up and needed to throw everything away. I felt like my positions were killing me; suffocating me; drowning me. EVERYTHING needed to go. I suddenly felt the need to rid my life of ALL of that wasn't serving me. It was immediate. Yet the decisions weren't made in haste.

I am shaken to the core. Forever changed. Forever removed from those things not helping to elevate me to my highest potential. I'm in love with the new possiblities for my life.


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