Friday, December 31, 2010

The New Year is Upon Us--:Let's Make it Happen

It has been so crazy busy around here. I have been doing a great job with my workouts. My eats have been well during the day-- and not so well at nite time :( -- it is fine though. I am eager about the upcoming year of 2011 and am so excited to report that I have set intentions for daily (hopefully bi-daily blogging!). I talked to Kennedy about it. It would mean a little bit of time away from her, but she told me to "help other people be healthy"! I've started by saying on the blog I want to...

*detail my workouts everyday
*pictures and descriptions of my daily eats
*little anticdotes about Kennedy and my life as a single mommie of a special needs kiddo

So onto 2010... This year will be full of hope and promise. This is the year that the vision that I hold of myself is no longer just a vision, but a reality. I know that some people feel "above" the new year rituals, but I don't. I love it. It feels renewing and refreshing. I am excited about the unique possibilities. Following in the footsteps of Steve Pavlina, I am making 30 day challenges for every month of 2011. It's easier to conceptualize than an "all year" plan for 2011.

January- No processed foods. Not even one bite! I know I can do it. I am starting January 1 midnite with a green smoothie. I'll be using processed almond milk unsweetened, but that's the only thing. I can't afford to make milk from all of those almonds! I am excited about the prospect of this new month...this new year.

I am also joining the lovely goddess Shazzie for the global juice feast. It starts January 3rd and last 10 days. Who is with me?? I could really use some support. I can promise you I will be blogging daily to keep myself accountable and hopefully encourage all who participate. Go to Shazzie's blog and search "Juice". It will pull up the posts from last year's global feast. I didn't participate, but this year I am. I will be starting tomorrow with green smoothies, juice and blended meals.

If I could afford it, I would be buying Shazzie's Divinity in a Box. It looks amazing!
All products
Yet another thing I'll do in 2011. I will manifest an amazing job and financial abundance. I've been unemployeed since Kennedy's surgery and the year has been so tough. I am so hopeful about this new year.

I will be starting it off with smudging, and setting my intention to bring forth all the parts of myself that I have compartmentalized in an effort to be a whole me. Not when I lose this weight. Not when I get a job or a life partner (gonna manifest him too this year), but right now. In the space of this very moment. I know that "everything I am seeking is also seeking me". Same for you. What you want is out there...just waiting for you. Clear your space with some sage. Then set a crystal clear picture for the universe of what you want and then go steadfastly in the direction of those dreams.

So January 1st???

*sage
*journal
*dance
*smoothie/liquid feast
*gym
*wash clothes
*clean my car
*blog
*dance with Kay
*hot long detox soak
*castor oil pack

I will leave you with my favorite poem. This poem (if read slowly) can transform your entire being. Be prepared. I'll read it everyday of 2011...

Wild Geese by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.

You do not have to walk on your knees

for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.

You only have to let the soft animal of your body

love what it loves.

Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.

Meanwhile the world goes on.

Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain

are moving across the landscapes,

over the prairies and the deep trees,

the mountains and the rivers.

Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,

are heading home again.

Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,

the world offers itself to your imagination,

calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting--

over and over announcing your place

in the family of things.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Contest Ending Extended!!!!

I have gotten the most beautiful emails lately about all the changes you all are making in your lives and wanting to make. I have been doing GREAT with the exception of this late nite snacking (tahini kale chips and baked oatmeal :) as I type and can't sleep tonite.

By December 30th please email me your life changes...all that you've been doing since the challenge began to become a better healthier you! It can be anything...just be honest and write from the heart. I am so excited to read them.

Okay...gotta run. It's almost 2 am and I have to get to bed. I need my beauty rest...well, it won't be that restful with a tummy full of kale chips. LOL

Thursday, December 16, 2010

15 Days Left--Come on. 5 Down, 5 to Go!

Hey!!!! Now that life is getting back to "normal", I have been missing posting my food and menus. Just to show you all how it has all changed in my world.

One of my lovely readers asked me by email recently if I was still raw. What's funny is that YES I consider myself raw and always will. Even my licence plate says so ;-P I don't do percentages or anything like that. It's more a focus of what food is derived from nature vs what is man made. Everyday I try to have some semblance of a green smoothie even if it's just a few leaves and one banana. For the most part, I am NOT juicing right now, but get in at least 2 juices a week. I would do more if I could afford the produce.

My menus are looking like this right now:

B: Gluten Free steel cut or rolled oats with canned organic (or non) pumpkin--no sugar added--with cinnamon and flaxseeds. 1 banana huge mug of tea
S: green smoothie
L: Salad (any green...mainly kale) with chickpeas/black beans/nutritional yeast/ any veggie I can find thrown in with quinoa on top OR a brown rice wrap wtih tons of crap thrown in
S: fruit/ green smoothie
D: stir fry....thai takeout...indian takeout....a ton of new stuff. I've been playing with ideas from my brand new cookbook! ------->Appetite for Reduction: 125 Fast and Filling Low-Fat Vegan RecipesAppetite for Reduction

Oh me oh my. First of all...I love Isa. I love everything she has ever put out! But I really love this one because it is my EXACT style of eating. I just throw in some green smoothies and juice...few superfoods and I feel balanced.  That's what it's all about --feeling good-. I don't want to be a person playing into the "women must be thinner at all cost" craze. It's ridiculous. If you get nothing else from this blog, get that every one's body is different and our ideas of beautiful are different as well. Check her awesome blog out --->The Post Punk Kitchen. She is the real deal. I have three of her six cookbooks. I thought it best to stay away from Vegan Cupcakes Take Over the World and Vegan Cookies Invade Your Cookie Jar. they aren't GF--althought I can translate most any recipe into a GF version!

I am only 5'0"....so my ideal weight shouldn't be the same for someone 5'4" or 5'7". I want my body to feel whole and strong. The winter that I was 100% raw I spent a FORTUNE. I truly did. I enjoyed every meal and wouldn't take it back, but I wouldn't do it again either. Every time I sit to have a hot bowl of vegan curry lentil soup, my soul starts warming up. The other nite I sat in front of my space heater with a bowl of my mexican bean chili and thought to myself "This is what life is all about" :) When I was 100% raw, I saw cooked food as the enemy almost. That's just not healthy thinking to me. It's okay if you wanna be all raw, but NO healthy food is the enemy. If anything processed food is the enemy!

Enough of my high horse....today I went to the gym for cardio. Ahhhh like riding a bike. I'm not spending anymore time worrying about shoulda, woulda, and couldas. It's all about RIGHT NOWS. I am working to take those words out of my vocabulary. They are truly unnecessary. I ran into a dear friend whom I haven't seen in 7 months -since stopping going- we cried together right there on the treadmill. It was one of those rarely authentic, genuine moments when two souls meet. I am so happy to be back working out. My quads feel like they are gonna pop off and become fruit roll ups. But Imma push through it...5 lbs to go before Dec 31st. Nothing will stop me now!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

16 Days of 2011 Left!!!

Yikes!!!!! Let's get a head start on the new year. Anybody still with me? Last week was insane. But now...drumroll....Kennedy is cleared for now!!!!!! We don't have to really worry for about 6 months to a year! I am so excited. How did I celebrate? Aside from taking her out for yummy Thai food, I went back to my gym! Yes I did! They missed me and I missed them. After crying about the situation, my "reserved" treadmill was waiting on me. My legs are killing me, but I've never felt better. So much like myself again.

How are you holding up? Even if you have been slacking, you have over two weeks left (minus Christmas day) and you can ROCK OUT. You can still lose 5-8 lbs before this year is out and give you the motivation that you need. It starts with the fork and ends with moving your ass. Let's do it.

I am super broke these days so I rented a new workout DVD from the library: Denise Austin Get Fit Daily Dozen: 12 moves in 12 minutes. I've learned that "balls to the wall" approach is so 2005. My new life need small doses. I used to go to the gym for 2 hours a day...ummmm NOT happening anymore. I have to find a way to regain my fit, trim, solid bod without all that time in the gym. Denise has a cute approach. Reminds me of Tony Horton's !0 Minute Trainer concept.

So....it's Wednesday...hump day... make a plan for the rest of the day and the rest of the week and the REST OF 2010 and stick to it! We can do this.

BTW...I'm 5 lbs down...1/2 way to my 10 lb goal for this part of 2010!!!!

MOTIVATION:

Crazy awesome vegan blog for meals on $3.33 a day MeloMeals $3.33 a day!

Motivational blog. This blog has tons of great tips and ideas to stay uplifted Motivational Memos

My soul sista Alexandra Jaye. She is such a rock solid goddess manifesting the life of her dreams My Goddess Life

The awesome Holly at Namaste Bitches

Learn how to balance at Healthy Happy Balance. A great blend of amazing information and mouth-watering recipes!

Keep plugging away! InTenSati could be yours!

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Keep Moving!!

How is it going? Of course I have had some setbacks....as is life. Kennedy had an MRI this week and had complications while under anesthesia. It was scary.

So my entire week was thrown off. Bad eating for a few days and no exercise all week. I am finishing school work, but will workout here a home later.

This is a quick post to remind you NOT to give up! You are worth it! You deserve it!

For all who are on task...yea!!! Keep up the good work. I believe in you.

Hugs,
Jayna'

Sunday, December 5, 2010

26 Days Left---Are Your Workouts Working Out?

Hey Fitness Sistas!!!!!!!!  How are the workouts goin? Are you doing them? Doing anything??? It's NEVER too late. Start today. Start now! Sometimes, we set ourselves up for sabotage by never giving ourselves a fighting chance. We set almost impossible standards, and then when we don't live up to them, we beat down on ourselves and say, "It will never work for me". I'm here to say STOP IT! Make a change.

Choose to go through the rest of your day without making one single complaint! Let me know how it goes.

As far as me....the other day I went for Indian food...sooooooooo spicy. I tried to workout but thought I would vomit (although it was many hours later). So, I decided to workout Saturday. My DVD was so scratched. Although it was brand new....teh 20 min workout, took me about 50 mins and I still couldn't complete it. I was frustrated and so annoyed.

Well, I wiped that attitude right out of my spirit. This morning I ran intervals on the treadmill and am off Baltimore for some healthy vegan food. Then tonite I will try that DVD again and see what happens. This week I'll be trying some new workouts On Demand. I browsed and the selection looks amazing. Time to try something new.

What's your POA (plan of attack) for the week??? I'll post mine later after I list all of the tv workouts I plan to try!!!!!

Keep the spirit! Keep the faith! 26 days until January 1...can't you imagine where you could be by then!?!?!?!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Felt Like Taking a Nap Today (but Rocked Out!)

Arg! It was one of those days...emotionally...WTF is it about getting on track? Your inner bitch who doesn't want you to succeed self-sabotage jumps in. I karate kicked her in the face! I didn't even think about it. I just got on the treadmill after dropping Kennedy and did 30 minutes of intervals. DONE. Tonite will be 20 mins of restorative yoga.

My body is feeling sore from JUST getting back in the game, but it is a feeling that is familiar and I love every ounce of the pain! Who else is sore? Who else made great food decisions or fitness accomplishments, even if it was cleaning your house with music on? I will be doing that tomorrow: cleaning with ankle weights on!! Oh yea...gonna crank the music up while Kennedy is gone and clean the entire house!

Don't be discouraged...even if you haven't JUMPED into action yet. It's not too late. It's NEVER too late. Make a decision RIGHT NOW to have fruit instead of some junky treat before bed. It's all about the small victories that lead up to the financial goal. So get planning! How are you gonna reward yourself? I'm alllllllllll ears!

Tomorrow is 30 Day Shred with Jillian Michael and old school Billy Blanks Abs!!! shhhhhhhhh

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

I am FIRED UP! Let's get our Mo-Jo!

Oh me oh my ladies??? I am soooooo fired up by reading all of the contestants. Let's do it! We can do it. Even if you read it and thought, "I'll start today", but didn't....stop reading and do 10 squats.. JUST DO IT. Let this change in your body, flip the switch in your mind to get into the healthy way of thinking. If you ate eighty pieces of candy today...STOP...go eat a fruit or veggie. EVEN IF YOU ARE STUFFED! This switch will put you mentally in the right place.
The Class of 2011 on East Campus
You can easily lose 10 lbs before this month is over. That's my goal and I WILL REACH IT!

Today I wanted to crawl in my warm bed after dropping Kennedy at school, but I changed my mind around. Came inside...did a quick DVD and lifted weights for about 15 minutes...I felt so amazing afterwards. I made a rewards chart for myself so as I lose this weight (again) I will get treats and spa dates. I am worth it and so are you!

What are you waiting for??? Get organized! Get a list of rewards and let's do it!!!!!!!!

Do you have workout DVDs that you haven't used in a while or want to get back into? Does your library have DVDs? Do you have Netflix? (a lot of their workouts are available in the Instant Play section) Do you have a dusty gym membership? No time to drive there (I sure don't)...workout with me at home!!! Let's do it. To be accountable...post your daily workout (either the actual workout or just how many minutes you worked out) in the comments section. This will keep you accountable. I'll read em everyday and answer any questions as quickly as I can.

It's already December 1st....COME ON. Put the junk down (even the junky self-sabotaging thoughts) pick up some weights or a DVD and get moving! YOU ARE WORTH IT!

I LOVE You All....The New Year Starts Now!

I am having so much trouble with blogger. Technology can be such a pain in the ass gift. Sorry. This post had to be majorly modified and I had to cut more than half of it out! All the links were destroyed...yikes. I will try to post the other stuff later tonite....

I have received the most beautiful, heartfelt emails in response to my last post.... I just want everyone of you to know (commenters too) that I love you all from the bottom of my heart.

My blog is all about hoping to inspire-motivate-encourage by my real and honest outlook on life, health, food, and fitness. I have blogger friends that have struggled with not being honest on their blogs or twitter/facebook pages for fear of ridicule or judgment or because it would mess with their business. I can't live that way. Every chance I've had to turn this blog into something for profit, I've turned it down. It's not that I have a "poverty conscious" which is what my dear friend Shazzie calls it....but rather becaues I truly do want to help and inspire because my heart wills me too...not because I MUST increase blogger traffic and sell more products.

I became an affilate for some of the companies that I love, but found myself feeling pressured to push the products. There is nothing wrong with adverstising products taht I love and believe in and making $.30 because of it, but most times, I don't bother...

I digress....this post is really to say that you (mainly women) rock. You rock rock rock. It's because of YOU that I continue to post and no matter what is going on in my life, I keep coming back. For some life is a breeze, and for others (like me) life is tough. I never ever ever thought I'd be in the position of having to lose 25 lbs, but I will do it. Right here. On this blog, where so many other parts of my life have taken place.

This is a recession and if I can do or offer anything, it will be for free! I can assure you of that. The day in the far future when I do charge, it will be to benefit someone/something else.

I love every single one of you. You are so strong and brave and have so many things going on in your lives. You deserve a huge cyberhug. Let's sit with a cup of tea as I give you some tips and inspiration!!! Read below....

Okay... Don't wait until the New Year. The New Year Starts Now!

Imagine if you ignore the 31 days until January 1 by telling yourself that it doesn't matter, you'll start Monday...or Jan 1st? You will just have that much more weight to lose or will have lost that much more muscle. Let's band together and say, "NOW is the New Year!" Let's call it Pre-2011.

I propose a challenge: 31 Days Pre-2011 Fit Plan!!!!!! Fit means..."tightening" up your diet, your exercise plan, your spending, your attitude, and your spirit. Let's go get it girls...we can totally do this!
Steps to start the "Fit Plan Pre-2011"

1. Take your weight first thing in the morning on an empty stomach (use the bathroom first!)

2. Write out a realistic healthy eating plan for the day

3. Decide what activity you will do for the day....minimum 30 minutes. It could be a walk, weight lifting, or even cleaning up. If cleaning up is your choice...then vaccuum, sweep, mop, and try to sneak in lunges, squats...wahtever .Just turn your "workout brain" on!

4. Drink a MINIMUM of 64-72 ozs of water.

5. Send me an email or leave me a comment below. The "winner" of the contest will be chosen by Kennedy out of a hat and they will win...drumroll....  Patricia's Intensati Method Workout!!!!!!!!!!
I bought this DVD with my own money and wanted to give it away before, but got stuck on my thesis. Best part is that I don't have many followers so your chances of winning are good! Just leave a comment or send an email to let me know your are participating in the challenge, and submit your results by December 29th! I think this will be fun and will hold us all accountable for completing it!

Monday, November 22, 2010

It's About That Time

It's time to rebuilding. Renewal. Strength. Energy. It's time to stand up in the face of adverse times and say that "I am worth it!" It is time to let the sun set on this phase of my life and walk into the next chapter. I don't need to wait until January 1st. TRUE change happens now.

I know that it is difficult---trust me I know. Our lives are about so much more than the foods we eat or about the clothes we wear. My soul is being pulled in a direction that scares me sometimes, but I am finally learning to face fear (REAL FEAR) and just go for it. If I fall---I fall, but I will be damned--I'm gonna try.

I recieved the most wonderful email this morning. It was hidden in my box somehow and it just lit my heart up (you know who you are) and it reminded me of the interconnectedness of us all. How intertwined we are with others. It's a beautiful thing.

Speaking of connection...I know that I mentioned a while ago that I was studying for my Certified Personal Training cert. Well, I am and I take my exam at the end of January. Once completed...rather than start an on-line personal training site for pay, initally I will work with 2 women at a time and train them (by distance) for free. It's something that has been on my heart for soooooooooooo long. I know the despair that comes with being overweight and being "into" unhealthy foods and the hopelessness of not being able to control it. So, my gift back to the universe and the lovely loyal readers of my sporadic blog, will be to hold a Contest and to choose two women at a time (maybe 3) to participate. Thoughts? Am I crazy? Everyone keeps telling to make MONEY MONEY MONEY. And although, I am dead broke, I dont' want to charge for that service just yet....I truly don't.

Drumroll please........... I successfully completed my Master's Thesis and defended it at the prestigious Penn State University!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It took me 5 years and although I thought it would NEVER get done....here I stand ready to walk about the stage. I have never been more proud of myself.
 I am standing at the foot of my own sunrise. Are you ready to stand at the foot of yours?


Tuesday, November 9, 2010

The Most Important


More important than the degree to which your food is cooked...is the state in which your food originated.

I have been researching and reading and interviewing older women who are fit and fabulous. There is a common theme---whole plant based foods.

This year 2010 has been insane for me. I fell into a deep depression as a result of Kennedy's brain surgery. All I wanted was to be alone with vegan ice cream and fries. I withdrew from the world. But, here I stand. Ready to rebuild.

So, I am starting slowly by walking and I have cleaned up my diet (cept for the occasional GF cupcakes) and wanted you all to share in my journey.

So, if anyone has had a hellova year and is ready to start rebuilding one square at a time...feel free to join me. I would love the company.

Oh yea, I will defend my Master's research thesis tomorrow to my committee. It is the first thing I got in order in my life. Wish me luck!

I love you.


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Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Hmmmmm

Can u tell what kinda day it's gonna be?????


from my iPhone

Monday, October 25, 2010

I have NEVER BEEN MORE DETERMINED!

Hold on few loyal reader! I have been going thru a ton and I have sooo much to tell u and so much has been put on my heart to share wih you. This weekend I promise to post some of it and some of what I have been doing.

Suffice it to say..challenges...struggles and people trying really hard to put and keep me down. Well i am determined as hell--more than EVER to see positive change. So until Saturday's post...join me in being determined for positive change to come!

Love you...

Monday, October 11, 2010

1/2 marathon: A 3 year old-a pine cone and a Caterpillar




Okay I wtote this post twice and it was deleted. A commmon problem lately---me not happy!

Okay anyway. The race was awesome. It was a bit too cold for my New Orleans blood, but it was fine.

I met a few women when I started out. This was great because I went out there with about 3000 people knowing NO ONE! my weak granny bladder couldn't hold on. I went twice before starting and once at mile 2---yes mile 2.



Let me say that I am no runner. Never have been one. Never wantedto be one. I do love it though. That "high" is indescribable. I did not run for "time" but rather for completion. Most people train with manuals. I used "Non-Runners Guide for Women". Lol

At mile 4...my left ankle felt iffy. Some kid tossed a pine cone from the sideline and I rolled over it with my foot. THEN at mile 4.20 my knee was NOT feeling good! When I saw a caterpillar passing me I knew it was time to stop for a second and regroup. I stopped for 2 mins and readjusted my body. I ran the other 9 miles-walking also--OUCH. I crossed the finish line in tears. Went to the ER LATER that day. Leg immobilizer for 4 days. Apparently my ITBand is a mess and possibly tore the meniscus in my knee- ugh! Good thing the PT is a cutie.

To simply complete this race meant a great deal to me. So much has happened in my life and I have had to miss two other races due to Kennedy's illnesses and hospitalizations. I am so proud of myself.

I am not an endurance runner by nature. But I will complete another 1/2 marathon next year and possibly walk/jog a full in the Fall. I haven't given up on running, but I have decided that I like my knees and walking is okay with me!

Race Morning



Sunday, October 3, 2010

Busy Runner




I am running/walking my first half marathon today! I would have blogged more about it or other things but I am so busy.

I have spent a great deal of time in prayer lately... Here is a side glance of the shirt I made.

I am off to do my personal best today. Not a competition for me. Just here to overcome a fear and make it happen. Breaks my hearr that i dont have anyone on the sidelines cheering, but my playlist rocks!


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Friday, September 24, 2010

Kristen's Raw ebook Giveaway!

Kristen\

I love contest! My good long time raw food friend The Adorable Ms. Kristen is having a contest! It is for a complete set of all 10 of her ebooks! That is a deal indeed. And after she became a mommie, she totally blossomed. She is an amazing woman. And awesome inspiration and an all around goddess. I have sung her praises before. Long time readers know that I think she is the real deal--fa real. I have a few of her books...her ebooks...and I have loved and used every one. So hop on over to her blog for inspiration, information and see her super beautiful daughter Kamea (pronounced Kah-MAY-ah)---how cute is that????

   Go and leave a comment to enter! 

p.s. I bought something fantastic that I want to giveaway!

Think Tea

Okay...so my office as of late...aka Borders  Bookstore. Okay...I spent enough money to give clean water to a small village in a third world country, buying soy (no less :( chai tea. So.. .I bring my own awesome tea and get their water for free and tip the barista $1. Works well. Bring my own rocking snacks too. Here is what I just started drinking.

Think O2®Think-O2® promotes mental performance* by combining herbs traditionally used to enhance memory function.* The use of gotu kola, lemon balm, and rosemary to improve mental clarity and memory is supported by traditional use.* Think-O2® is a refreshingly aromatic blend of herbal tastes – slightly bitter, sweet, and spicy with mint.


It rocks. Not sure if a placebo is going on or if it really works, but either way I am happy with my concentration! I am kidding, I know it's the tea. I recommend it for those who have trouble focusing or for moms who have to mange to produce one hour of focused work in 15 minutes of actual time. 


I digress.... I have been delving deeply into my spiritual practices. This has me withdrawing from a lot of people in my life. I am not becoming a hermit, I am just sensitive right now to every one else's crap and drama. I don't want to deal actually. As a result, this "me" time is being awesomely spent moving forward in some areas in my life.


I have been taking care of Kennedy for so long... six years to be exact. Putting dreams and goals on the back burner for her. I would do it all over again, but now (thank goddess) she is progressively getting better (take away a few setbacks), I am supercharged. 


I am finding answers to life's questions on my yoga mat. I can't afford to go to the studio across town that I would love to go to. I've created on studio in the front of my bedroom. And everyday on my mat--whether it be a 8 minute or 60 minute practice-- I open my heart to the grace of God and miracles are revealed.


I have been studying the Bhagavad Gita. I am Arjuna...open and listening. Though I am ready for my battle. Anybody else out there battling their way back into a healthy, happy life? Forging a new way? Maybe something different from what you thought you'd be doing or how you thought you'd be living? 


I have a mug from the hospital where I lived with my daughter all those long weeks. It says, "Life is all about how you handle Plan B." I drink tea from it everyday. As I do from my PSU Children's Hospital Mug. They are daily reminders of just how difficult life was such a short time ago. I am happy to move forward. Happy to be inspired.


What's inspiring you.


In light and love,
Jayna'

Thursday, September 23, 2010

FInding Love

Okay hold up...NOT with a guy :)... with me.    

All of the stuff that has happened with Kennedy has truly forced to me "put up or shut up" in the spirituality department. My love for God (as I know her) has expounded and I am finding myself coming up on the other side of the mountain. As Kennedy is climbing toward health and healing and recovery...so am I. I am giving myself space and time to feel all of the emotions that almost losing a child brings and using all of this as a catalyst to run forth into the life I have always wanted.

People are always telling me that my life will be better and easier if I have a husband...in essence a partner. While on some counts, I am sure that is true... I am not ready for that. I am cultivating my love for myself and for Kennedy and am healing all the broken places in my soul and shining light in some very dark places. For now...my mission is self healing, cleansing and extreme self care. My next post will be a book review of some amazing stuff that I have been reading.

I haven't had time to get to the gym and am thinking of suspending my membership for a few months. I have been moving my godpod though! yoga...weights...cardio. My approach to fitness is new and exciting and includes as much mental and spiritual fitness as it does physical fitness! As a result I am so excited about my workouts. Truth is I have always been excited about them. I am NOT the one who dreads going to the gym or working out. Being at home though has reminded me of the convenience and pleasures of working out there. I love it!!! The gym holds a soft spot in my heart, but I lost most all of my 60-70lbs at home! GASP. In fruity colored socks and tie dyed spandex pants (yep for real!)

So, I am not wasting time with my commute and am instead meditating for a LOT longer. My brain and soul are calling me to the zafu. And I find myself transported into a world of wholeness where everything makes sense. If ever I find myself seeking...anything...partner, money, peace...I remind myself that it is all inside of me.

It is slowing becoming Fall here on the East Coast. I am craving carrot apple juice...cinnamon....quinoa... sauteed spinach...sweet potatoes. Yum. I'm doing green smoothies everyday as I feel out of balance. Eating hospital food for months and frozen organic vegan tv dinners leaves you devoid of a healthy Ph. So I am on the hunt to green my godpod, clean out junk....and slowly transition into the life that I want. Accepting what is...day by day.

How are you doing?

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Okay Feast Smeast

Okay...had the best intentions, but the Fall wind blew on the East Coast and BAM like a loan officer being asked for a loan by a single Black mom, I slammed the door in my liquid fast's face!

I know...sad sad sad....But truth is ..it ain't sad. As a feminist, I have a right to change my mind. Okay that sounds like total bullshit. What's going on is that I am practicing Extreme Self Care and what that means is doing what is best for me on every day. Somedays I am having mainly green juice and tea...somedays I am eating like a cave woman after a hunt. Whatever...Kennedy's recent surgery has taught me that life is too short. Even as I go back and reread over my blog from a few years ago, I am spiritually soooooooo different. And all of this "raw or not" , "vegan or not", seems mundane. We need vegans. We need ethically responsible parents and teachers. More than that we need love. Love for our bodies. Love for our kids. Love for the planets and love for our enemies.

So, rather than recommit to some deadlined liquid feast (which totally sounded good at the moment), Imma keep it real. And as Summer turns to Fall, respect and honor my body and give it the nutrition it needs while being very mindful to "fast" in the morning and at nite. I hear a warm steaming mug of tea calling my name right now :-)

Love,
Jayna'

Friday, September 10, 2010

NEW Fast Start Date & MIRACLES

 

Hey Green Goddesses!!                   

My mom came into town from New Orleans.... Kennedy was going to have another surgery this Wednesday... all things combined I decided to postpone the start day! Sorry to disappoint, but all the same *rules* of the fast still apply. Actually, it is really funny. One of my cousin's decided that my entire family should fast today in honor of Kennedy's miraculous recovery turn around. So today September 10th from 8-2pm, everyone is consuming only water! Isn't that fantastic!!! So... my technical start date is tomorrow. I am sure I will make a great dinner tonite for my mom while she is here. She leaves tomorrow morning and the fasting will begin!!!!

I loveeeeeeeeeee MIRACLES!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, September 6, 2010

33 Days of Yoga, Liquids (Smoothies, Juices & Tea)


33 Days of Focused Spiritual Fasting/Feasting
                                 

This isn't an experiment... a diet...anything about "going 100% raw again"... this is about my spiritual practice. I've been going to God and the universe to help me gain the strength that I need for Kennedy rite now. And has it been tough. Growing up Catholic, I am no stranger to sacrifice (think Lent) and feeling that longing for the very thing that you want while waiting for God's grace. Well, I've been meditating and praying/journaling like crazy these past few months and a few days ago it came to me in a still small voice....sacrifice and focus. I thought to myself, "WTF??? I have sacrificed EVERYTHING. Given up everything, lost everything to care for her through this life crisis." But in  my yoga pose...it came to me. BAM. So here I am. The number 33 was in a vivid, lucid dream that nite so that is why I settled on that number.  It seems fair right? "God, universal know-all...spare my daughter's life and restore her to vibrant health. In exchange I'll blend some greens and do focused yoga...Amen"... ha! Seems fair to me!

What is crazy is that I just went grocery shopping for really great and healthy food! So, I will have to cook it for my mom if she visits or freeze it to eat after these 33 days. I don't want to do all juice because I work out and I need/want my energy levels to be high.

What you can expect is a daily breakdown of my menu and my exercise for the day. This reminds me of my 14 Green detox I did in 2009. As with this "focused/fast/feast", there was no crazy schedule and list of stuff to buy... I just did what felt right for my body. Right now I am catering to my spiritual body. This process with Kennedy has changed me in ways that I am not even able to describe. Know that nothing makes you stronger than watching your child fight for their life....really fight--and you are totally helpless.

Spiritual Fasting feels like exactly the right thing for right now. I have made a pledge to do yoga everyone of these 33 days. Nothing fancy like, "I will do such-and-such yoga DVD for 90 minutes)... I just roll out of my mat and do a sequence that I know or roll with how my body needs to move. This is a DRASTIC difference from the Ashtanga yoga that I prefer--but there is nothing like the present for change. Listen to your body (as I have to mine). It's a wealth of information about YOU.

I get emails from people struggling with being raw...or struggling to follow a crazy yoga practice as outlined by someone else---YOU know your body best. Only you. This life is about balance and about doing what is best for YOU at any given point in time. And no one need make you feel badly because of where you stand in your life today. And no one gives you permission to feel good ...but YOU.

List to consume ...


*Green Smoothies
*Chia seeds
*Juices (green and fruit)
*Teas....yerba mate too :)
*Teeccino


Physical Movement...


*Yoga Daily
*The usual- Cardio/Weights

Spiritual Advancement...

*Journaling
*Dance
*Restorative Yoga
*New Vision Board

Here's to day 1! BBL to tell you how it went

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Lessons Learned

Cute Sign at Whole Paycheck In Baltimore

First of all... I wouldn't know where to really begin. I feel so fortunate to have this link into what life is really all about. Before, I thought that I knew, but I didn't. I thought I knew what it was to be mindful...aware...tranquil. Now I realize that I did not. Kennedy's grace and strength...her will to live had given me new eyes from which to see. She is truly the reason that I exist and I am devoted and committed to doing ANY AND EVERYTHING to make her life and time here as memorable, fantastic as possible.

My diet... wow right? I have finally settled on what seems to truly work for moi. Veganism runs in my veins. I am do committed to living to my life following the principles of ahisma that I could not eat meat or any animal products if I tried. I honestly have no judgment about those who do.I use to be a card carrying vegan activist, shouting in the face of someone's big mac--yelling obscenities from street corners on microphones (I am serious--I did). Now I am more Ghandi with it, "My life is my message". And it is. I get so many people who think I"m barely 20 years old!! At Kennedy's school, I get the "Who are you here to pick up?" looks. I love it.

How my diet affects my life...
In my honest opinion it doesn't matter what you eat. The question is truly "How do I feel?" If you are running around with abundant energy, balanced emotions, great bowel movements...then who the hell am I to rain on your parade. Even if your diet consist of a plethora of trans fats, and process laden donut ho-hos? However, if you are like majority of people, your diet is killing you slowly...making you fat, aging your face, and giving you a host of bowel issues. Don't you want better? Everyone wants to sell you some "plan"...some "genius, one-pill-a-day" plan that will put your eating and diet back on track. NO NO NO NO NO! Not gonna happen. Truth is...most of us know what to eat. We know what to do. We need someone to be accountable to and someone to help guide us along the way. Hopefully that's where I come in!!!I am using allllllll of my "expertise"--hahaha--- and knowledge to put together my own little buziness. More in the weeks to come though---shhhh

Kay the week before surgery.. Going to the White House!

So, to wrap up the diet end of things... you are what you eat. You are worth the extra time it takes to sautee' veggies, rather than grab n go a sugary yogurt. And no one better than me understands time and financial constraints. I am the single mother of a severely ill child, living 1300 miles away from my support network. I have made tips and tricks that I know have saved my life and my diet. I only use the gauge of how well I am feeling. The weight that I picked up is melting off and I am feeling better than I have in a long time. I've lost 70lbs on my own, as a working mom/full-time student mom....stressed mom. I've gone through a stint in the NICU, severe classical Autism, progression up the spectrum, Chiari Malformation Type !, a subocciptal craniectomy & cervical lamenictomy, 2 bouts of meningitis...Okay let me stop there! My point is that I know I have a unique, realistic approach to weight loss and life long fitness. I am finally pooling it all together to make it accessible to everyone.

I have learned the lesson that life is short.

Cherish those you love.

Stand up for what you believe in.

TODAY will always be better than tomorrow.

Smile more than you cry.

Believe in something remarkable.
One of my favorite pictures of Kennedy outside of the White House

I am off to update Kennedy's blog now!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Short Post before a Long Post

Phew! I can't begin to tell you what life has been like since my last post here. I really can't.
Kennedy had her brain and spinal surgery...her recovery has been less than optimal and she has been hosptilazed for extended stays twice since then.

I will tell the full length of her story/recovery process on her  blog later tonite. Suffice it to say, it is the toughest thing I have ever done and will ever do in my life. Watching your child in that much pain is excruciating....

Onto the food/exercise...later tonite I will make a long post with alllllllllllll that's been happening, but let me say briefly, I have been toying with the notion of a "SANE" diet...what's safe/sane and makes sense.

When I was 100% raw, I was really really thin, and had tons of energy. Yes this is true, but I never felt balanced...or grounded. I did when I ate nuts/nut butters, but then my stomach would bloat (when still digesting a kale salad with tons of tahini). IF not, I felt light and airy, but not grounded and real. THEN when I did fruitarianism, I felt amazing. The weight management was effortless, but I was totally up in the clouds. My body felt amazing, but 20 average bananas a day left me feeling like something was missing.

I have been on this journey for about 5-6 years now and I FINALLY have it down for ME. I know this is a safe, sane way to eat and approach food. Veganism is as much a part of my soul as being African American is  to me so I dont' waiver there, but I have no judgments for those who eat HUMANELY procured animal products. I would prefer the world be vegan. I hate the thought of any animal dying for some one's taste buds, but factory farming is so yesterday. That kinda cruelty and pain is soooooooooooooooo over! I will post a few online sources of humanely slaughtered animal products/meat. I know my vegan friends will kill me, but this is a part of my new "non judgment", "safe and sane" approach. I will challenge those who do eat meat to Meatless Mondays.

I maintained my awesome vegan diet even while living in the hospital with Kennedy! It was so crazy how I did it all, but I did. I setup a pantry in her room. The nurses thought it was hilarious. I was merely trying to survive. Let me not kid you...this revelation came as a result of some serioulsy bad vegan eating for a few sad months prior to the surgery. I felt so depressed and sad about this...what  better than a pint or two of 
Yummy I know....

So, just wanted you to know that I am back. She is taking one day at a time. Tonite I will regal you with ventures and stories, lessons and gifts I have acquired throughout this spiritually evolved time in my life in regards to my diet /exercise.

Let me say this to finish for now: I've never felt better...just the way I am

Sunday, July 4, 2010

All About Inspiration

We all know how important it is to feel motivated and inspired. I get a lot of questions about how to get motivated. It's an inner longing to make tomorrow better than today. Nobody can give it to you. You have to want it in your soul... You have to want to stop doing destructive things and want to have peaceful days and restful nights. There is no situation so bad that you can't get out of it or change it. You are the master of your fate. The maker of your destiny. Get behind the driver's seat of your own life.

My blog will hopefully serve as a place where I can deliver information and access into websites/ideas. Take what works, leave what doesn't. This life isn't all about food...this is a lifestyle.



Inspiring Interview with Kris Carr

I love her film Crazy, Sexy Cancer. Yes I am a survivor, but it's just simply inspirational. She is truly a light and a goddess. I admire her so much. She is one of my favorite people. I adore her.

The yummy Alexandra Jaye  interviewed Ms. Kris Carr. Alexandra Jaye's interview with Goddess Kris Carr is very motivational and informational. I'm all about listening to interviews and videos about life, love, and health and fitness. Be inspired!




Inspiration from Will Smith. Most people don't know just how inspirational Will Smith truly is. He is a machine. I admire his work ethic and truly do look up to it. I will watch the following interview several times. I know it will inspire you too.



More Inspiration for you.....

Read about inspiration here.

The Story of Stuff



So, go into the world today and be inspired. Slow down and tap into the space in your soul that wants better...wants more...desires deeply.

You are worth it!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Truly Living Life

What does it mean to truly love life? To be vibrantly and blissfully alive. To walk authenictally in the focus of your divine truth. As I age I am realizing the importance of just being in the moment and being okay.

Kennedy and I are in D.C. For our "Summer of Dreams" tour. She is having a blast. We spent the evening and nite by one of my very best friends from college. She also has a daughter and is a single mom. So it was an all girl extravaganza.



Tomorrow I will post all of the pictures and stories. The weather Is absolutely gorgeous and I am so excited to have had this opportunity to share this experience with my girl.



Today in the D.C. sunshine and breeze, I stopped to be aware of what a perfect day it was. Kennedy told me that she has a perfect day----that's ONLY
what it's about.

Hugs

- Posted by Vegan Fit Mama

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Fitness and Revelations Take 2

Okay...so I'm still pissed off and mad as hell getting over losing my post earlier. I would love to say I'll put as much effort into this one, but I SO won't. Sorry...that's just my mood right now.

For the people that continue to find it necessary to email me about not being 100%--- lay off....seriously. I believe in clean, VEGAN, nutrition. For ME being 100% raw with the $1000/month grocery bill and 20 ingredient crackers/pizzas wasn't working for me. I'd rather lightly steamed veggies and sweet potatoes. I'm not offended that you unsubscribed or don't agree with my choices, but don't harass me either. Funny enough, earlier when I typed this out, I was much nicer! Oh well...that's the truth about how I am feeling.

As promised...here is the fitness routine I've been following. I'll post more on fitness regularly, but briefly because I'm pissed I have to type it over here is the routine I'm doing for the next 4 weeks from Oxygen Magazine. This comes from an issue years and years ago.

I warm up for about 10-15 light minutes on the crosstrainer or the treddy.

1. DB squats 
2. One arm row 
3. Romainian DeadLift (stiff legged) 
4. Incline DB Press 
5. Sumo Squats 
6. Seated shoulder Press 
7. Lunges with Glute lift 
8. Overhead tricep extension 
9. Seated Bicep Curls 

Sometimes on the last set, I will do a drop set. To me there is nothing like lifting weights. You can't spot reduce fat, but you can spot "build" or sculpt your body with weights. Or as we call em "iron pills". I will be certified as a trainer within a month. I know this is a great direction for me. It allows me to combine what I do and love best with what I truly know. I understand weight loss and the mental anguish that comes with losing motivation, having no one who believes or supports you, struggling financially, and having a million things going on in your life that you feel are preventing you from taking care of yourself. The "tomorrow" will NEVER come. If you ever say to yourself, "I will stop eating ice cream tomorrow" you have lost the battle.

Start NOW. Start at home. Stop reading this and do 5 pushups on your knees and 10 jumping jacks. Just do SOMETHING to flip a switch in your brain and start becoming a new person. A better person. The highest version of yourself. The only way to truly have change happen is to DO IT. If you keep waiting on someone else to join you...you've LOST THE BATTLE. If you are waiting for your boyfriend/partner to want to eat healthy, or until after the 4th of July or until AFTER summer vacation...you've ... say it with me... LOST-THE-BATTLE. And trust me, there are plenty more important battles to fight.

Here are some youtube clips of my favorite favorite people in fitness. Before I put the clips on here, I actually had someone tell me today that should never refer to other fitness professionals or trainers because people won't hire me or consult with me. My response was simple: I was put here to plant and water the seeds of success and motivation for people (esp moms) to live a fit and healthy life. I will do whatever it takes to help people get there. I do have to make a living, but I won't do it in fear. I am here and writing this blog to SUPPORT, EDUCATE, INFORM and INSPIRE. I certainly hope that it is.

Here are the clips!

Zuzanna  is one of the most inspiring women in fitness to me! She is lean and fit and firm and not afraid of muscles. Neither am I. I highly suggest you follow along with her FREE workouts if you are short on time or can only workout at home. Below is one of my favorite workouts of hers.



If you can look at her and not see how SICK AWESOME she is...I don't know what to say :)




Holly Rigsby of FitYummyMummy is wicked fit. She also has program for working out AT HOME with limited equipment. She is very pregnant right now and still rocking her workouts!

I don't believe in the supplements that they provide, but this series is awesome.

Jennifer Nicole Lee is a mom and has lost about 70 lbs just like me! I wish wish wish I could train with her one day...ahhhhhhh




And lastly, it wouldn't be right if I didn't incorporte the fabulous Jillian Michaels. I love when people call me the Black Jillian. What a freaking compliment!!!!!!! Jillian, like me, is all about getting to the psychology behin WHY you are overweight to begin with. Powerful powerful stuff!.



Okay, I am off to hug my baby gyrl. I'm super sore from a crazy crazy kick ass workout that I did today. Ouchie wouchie! I love it though!

See ya tomorrow. I'm getting Kay early and we are heading to D.C. to visit allllllllllllllllll the monuments and hope to sneak and see Barack or Michele going to and fro!

Weights & Veggies,
Jayna'

Fitness and Revelations

My entire post that took me 1 hour was deleted....


I'm frustrated. If I feel like it, I'll post it again. 

Monday, June 28, 2010

My 30th Bday Weekend with Kennedy

 

Yes I promised a fitness blog and it's coming, but I turned 30!!!!!!!!! I am so freaking excited!   Yes I am NOT one of those people who is upset about aging. I love it. Super excited to leave my crazy 20s behind and step into a new decade full of promise and hope. People kept asking me what big plans I made to go out and I honestly didn't think to make any. I am quite boring.  I love simple things. Hanging with Kennedy is the best time of life. Here are some pix from our weekend. I felt great to be a vegan this weekend.


On Saturday we went to Farm Sanctuary. Kennedy was right in her element. I was tearful at several points as we got personal stories of farm animals who barely escaped the trips to the slaughterhouse. My soul was at peace there on the 175-acre farm. Wow...it was totally amazing.



















Then, the next day which was Sunday the 27th (my birthday!) we went to Baltimore to visit the National Aquarium, but not before stopping by our favorite Gluten Free and Vegan restaurant on the East Coast!



 To make it better it was the designated day that 10% of all proceeds went to the Humane Society of the US!! Wow. There was a table with animal rights info and Kennedy told the guy, "I know all about this stuff"... lol



































Saw this cool sign when I went to the Independent Theater
My bday and no pix of me! I know I know. This is the best I could get at the end of the nite at the theather! That's a soy chai latte in my hand. Dunno why I'm craving so much soy. Hope I don't grow a mustache!

There is so much I want to leave behind in my 20s , so much I'm looking forward to in my 30s. There indeed is a wisdom that comes with age and experience. I can feel it in my bones. 

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